closer

I’m being baptized next Sunday.  I had been in debate with myself about doing this- not so much that I don’t want to be baptized- I do. I want to declare my committment to God, but I just am/was so nervous about the actual "process".  I was afraid I’d have to make some sort of speech to everyone in Sunday’s fusion.  I missed the deadline to sign up to be baptized on Easter weekend, and I kind of figured ehh oh well I’ll wait until next year and maybe I won’t be so nervous.  Maybe I’ll be more sure of myself.  More confident with my relationship with God.  However, we went to fusion this morning and they said they were baptizing 20 people next weekend and even though their deadline was April 1st to sign up, if we wanted to let them know by today they can fit you in.  That made me all nervous. I felt like God was calling to me and giving me another chance to do this.  I knew I needed to talk to someone about how the baptism goes and ease my nervousness.  So, opportunity came when Porter got fussy and I had to take him out into the lobby. I ran into one of the speakers for Westwinds (there are 3 main speakers for the services) and I talked to him about being baptized.  I decided to go for it.  I’m a little nervous, I’m scared to be in front of the whole church, but I’m also really excited.  And I really want pictures… but I’m not sure if thats appropriate or not?  I guess I can take my camera and if no one else takes pictures, then I’ll leave it in the diaper bag.