Ryan was adopted as an infant, and I have always say that someday I’d like to adopt a little girl from China.  I began saying this in response to Ryan’s teasing that we’re going to have 3 boys.  I told him if we do then we’re adopting a little girl from China. The more I say this, the more I feel that I really would like to adopt someday.  Maybe have 2 kids of our own and adopt a 3rd.  I found this website Waiting for Sophie and it really touched my heart.  After spending an hour on that site- from beginning to end- I know that I really would want to adopt someday, if finances allowed it.  However, at this rate we’ll be lucky to ever get into a larger home- let alone every spend 20-30k to adopt. Its sad that there are so many children who need loving homes, but the process is so expensive!  (if you go through each month of posts- check out these peoples house in the pictures. Its like a freaking mansion.  They must be loaded)

Update on the job situation

It’s not looking so hot for me.  The people who wanted me to nanny have backed out on me.  Mom #1 was all for me doing the nanny thing (she’s the one I’ve contacted throughout this whole process) and Mom #2 was kind of dragging her feet.  Mom #2 has never had to pay for childcare (her dad watched their daughter) and according to Mom #1, Mom #2 wants to "explore her options" with daycare/preschool.  She said that my references had nothing but wonderful things to say about me, and she would probalby end up kicking herself after seeing that daycares aren’t that great, but she felt that she needed to check out other options and see what was available.  I understand that, but sheesh!  Why did they go in search of a nanny if Mom #2 wanted to see what other options there were?  Anyway, that job is down the drain.  Mom #1 told me that if I got my daycare up and running then she’d love to send the kids to my daycare, and she thought Mom #2 probably would also.  She said the "preschool-type" daycare is what they’re looking for, so if I get it up and running to get ahold of them.  Nice.  What I don’t get, though, is that I could be doing preschool projects with the girls throughout the week if they had me nanny.  And that’d be more one-on-one than at daycare.  I suppose its the price, and they didn’t want to pay me and also pay the preschool that they were going to send the girls to, but again- if I watched them I could plan an activity a day or so that is geared towards preschool/learning and then they wouldn’t need to send them to preschool two mornings a week. 

So I’m back to square one.  I have an interview at Western for a middle school Special Ed position, but I’m wary about taking it.  I heard from a friend who does daycare that the lady who’s position I’m interviewing for takes her kids to their daycare.  The lady said the SED team is hard to work with and there are a lot of bad politics and thats why she quit.  I’m not sure I want to leave my son with someone else to work in a less than pleasing environment.  That is, however, assuming I get the position. Which I may not.  If I don’t get the job I have no freaking idea what I’ll do this fall.  I highly doubt we’ll get our house sold and have another house bought before the school year starts. And I need to start working soon- we’re running out of money.  Anyway, wish me luck.  I have no idea what God is wanting me to do now.  I just feel like I’m being so mislead and I’m so confused as to what I’m supposed to do.