bumming

I didn’t get the job at Western.

Oddly, I’m more bummed about it than I thought I would be.

I thought I’d be really happy that I’d get the opportunity to stay home with Porter and open a daycare, but instead I’m really kind of bummed.  Bummed.

Katie isn’t going to go through with the daycare plans anymore.  She doesn’t want to work, doesn’t have to work, so she pretty much isn’t interested in doing in on a daycare with me.  I am hesitant to just do daycare alone- I’d be licensed for 6 kids- no big deal, but the thought of being in a house with 6 kids all day and no adult interaction scares me.  I don’t want to end up hating my job and dreading the work week.  I would love to do daycare if I had another person working with me. 

So, as of right now I’m watching Luke and Faith.  I’m going to go to their house and she said she’d let me take them to the zoo etc. if I wanted.  I really think this will be an awesome family to work with.  Laura even called me back to thank me for reconsidering them.  They are super nice people.  At the moment I guess thats what I’ll do, and if our house sells and we get another house I definitely will have to do daycare.  We’ll do fine on the money I’ll make watching Luke and Faith, but we couldn’t afford a bigger house payment. 

Another option I might have is to take on Aria a few mornings a week and do preschool activities with her and Faith.  I need to talk to Lauren still about that.  Laura (F&L’s mom) liked that idea so Faith would have another kid to play with.  That might work out to be a little extra money. 

Anyway, just thought I’d update.  I’m bummed… I really was looking forward to getting a real job and wearing something other than sweats every day. 

Oh well.  I guess this is just what I’m meant to do.  If I was meant to teach this fall I would have gotten one of those jobs.

Ryan’s ticked.  Forgot to mention that.  Everytime he’s called today he’s been bitching at me and pissed.  He’s more mad that I don’t know exactly what I’m doing this fall and it scares him.  Well, yeah it scares the hell out of me but what other choice do I have?  I can babysit or do nothing.  What do you think would be better?  The daycare thing is still up in the air and he doesn’t want to look at houses unless I for sure do that.  Well DUH we aren’t going to buy a house if I don’t plan on doing daycare.  But really I have no other choice but to do daycare.  UGH.

Ok I have to go rinse out the hairdye from my hair.