Yesterday Aunt Dawn watched Porter for the afternoon while I went and tried to find a job. When I picked him up she told me he had a tooth coming in! How could I not notice? Well, today it was really noticable, and I’m sure by tomorrow it’ll be up for sure. My little guy is going to have his first tooth! How cute! As soon as its really noticable I *of course* will get a picture and post it.
Life still sucks. I know we’ll get through this but right now it seems like theres no light at the end of the tunnel. Ryan and I have hardly spoken two words to eachother this evening- we just plain aren’t seeing eye to eye and had quite the tiff earlier. We both have a lot of resentment towards eachother. I’m not saying much else, I hate to air my dirty laundry all over the web. Lets just leave it as life sucks- jobs suck- money sucks- everything sucks right now. I feel like I’m living in a big Hoover vacuum cleaner. Sucky.
Aunt Linda really wants us to move down to Georgia. She said Cobb County and Gwinnett County are in desparate need of teachers. They’re starting the school year with hundreds (maybe she said thousands) of subs. They get 6,000 new students every year, and need 1,200 new teachers every year. We are thinking of driving down there sometime soon and checking out the area. I don’t know if I have the guts to move.
I applied for a server position at Hunt Club today. They went and had a little huddle over my application for about 15 minutes (which basically had this info on it: my address, highschool and college I attended, last 4 jobs and 3 references). Irritated me- I thought "Oh my word its not rocket science. I can handle delivering plates of food to people. I’m a mother and a teacher with a bachelor’s degree- I can multitask with the best of them!" UGH. I have an interview at 10:30 on Friday. Oh by the way she told me… "We go by bar time, so 10:15 YOUR time is 10:30 OUR time- Bar Time." OHH excuuuuuse me! I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing anymore. I feel like just throwing my hands up and giving up. I just feel so confused. Know that commercial with the EASY button? Where’s mine? Where’s my "I give up- PASS" ticket???
I do have awesome friends though, and they’ve helped brighten my day a little bit! I was able to get out tonight and spend some much needed time with friends. I went to see Devil Wears Prada with Maria and afterwards I went to dinner with Katie and Heather. (Yeah you’re thinking "gosh she has no money but is going to a movie and dinner. This is true. But it was either that or sit at home sulking and have a mental breakdown). And then this evening I was chatting with Jess and she told me Alyssa prayed for me tonight- out of the blue little Alyssa was saying her prayers and prayed for "Cole". Awww.
Well, I’m off to bed. I need to sleep. I need to sleep for the next 10 years- that’d be preferable. I highly doubt that’ll happen though.
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Try to keep positive Nicole! When you least expect it something great is going to happen:)
I’m sorry you are living in a Hoover right now! I will pray for you that you guys figure out what you are supposed to do… that would be tough to move, but I think you guys would like it! Try to hang in there – good things come tho those who wait! ((HUGS))
Keep your chin up. I am sure good things are ahead for you. Your Aunt is right about Gwinnett County. My kids go to school in Gwinnett (great schools, so much better than the ones in Florida where we were previously) and my daughter-in-law has been teaching there for the past two years. That is why she moved up here as the benefits were so much better than moving back home to teach. The benefits and pay are really good. I don’t know what your hubby does, but it might be something to look into. We have lived here for 3 years and love it.
Sorry to hear about the crap you are dealing with daily. Just keep smiling and know that everyone is keeping you in their thoughts and prayers! Things will get better!!!
Hang in there and keep the ideas coming. As long as you keep that up, juggling the stress of being a wife, mother and working vs staying at home won’t hold you back from having a life that’s fun-filled and happy!! Trust me…lots of moms out there aren’t as lucky and you’ve got more talent going for you and more options available to you than most!!