Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
Home from work today. In the house. All day.
As my son, for the hundredth time today, relentlessly whined and tugged at me, waving the same frigging book in my face for me to read, I had an epiphany.
I am not SAHM (stay-at-home-mom) material.
While it makes me sad (1: because financially it’ll never happen and 2: I probably wouldn’t survive), I am ok with it. I have to work to keep my sanity.
Don’t get me wrong… I love my son. I love spending time with him. I love when he crawls in my lap and we read book after book (hopefully not the same one). I love making him giggle and playing cars with him. I love tickling his knees, and when he snuggles his head on my shoulder in the crook of my neck.
I have always been sad that I will never be a SAHM. I have always thought I’d love nothing more than to stay home with my
kids. And, you know, if I got the opportunity I’d probably try it. I just
don’t know that I would last. I’d want to get out of the house… and
you know me… getting out of the house means spending money. Money
that wouldn’t be there because I wouldn’t be working.
I just don’t know if I could do it. Stay home.. in my house… all day… picking up after the toddling tornado. Listening to him whine. Telling him for the 80th time to get out of the toilet. Leave the dog bowls alone. Stop whining. I think working part-time is close enough for me. Close enough on some days to make me wish I worked full time.
Anyway… just my thought for the day (errr. yesterday….)
nicolebarczak.com 
Toddling Tornado… that’s a perfect description of this age.
I’ll have to remember that one!
I feel the same way. I love Macy but I knew around month 3 of her life that I could not be a stay at home mom. I need that daily interaction with adults (outside of the phone and email) and can’t be cooped up at home all the time.
Being a SAHM is definitely not for everyone. It can feel so monotonous sometimes. I’ve been lucky to be able to be home with my kids, but there are times that I wish I had a job outside of the home so I could get a break. And the extra money would be nice, too. 😉