Feeling depressed and a bit hopeless about our life.
Money.
Student loans.
Our house.
Daycare.
Bills.
Will we ever be able to afford another child?
Will we ever have our head above water?
Will we ever live in a house larger than 900 sq. ft?
Will I ever find a full time position, and hell, even then will it be worth it with the cost of daycare?
Student loans. Seriously. Why is education so punishing. $420 a month and rising with interest $4+ a day. Is there any relief?
I feel like I’m trudging through thick, sticky mud and a torrential downpour, with no sight of it letting up. I’m sure eventually the rain would thin out the mud and make it easy to go though, but will it be in time? Will I slowly drown before I make it though?
*sigh*. Life is good right now, this moment, this week, this day, but in the same sense, our world as a whole really sucks.
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Wow, Nicole. What a stark contrast between your post this morning and your happy-go-lucky header up there.
Not much to say to that. It sounds way too familiar with how I was feeling a couple of years ago, right before Sawyer was born actually. In the end we just had to get away from where we were and start fresh with a new perspective on our situation. I could just feel us (and me emotionally with the weight of it) sinking deeper and deeper. Things like that can be so consuming and overwhelming.
So I have no great encouraging words for you, except hang in there. And make sure you and Ry don’t let the yuckiness of financial stuff taint other parts of your marriage and your life together. It’s not worth it. It’s hard to remember as much as it seems to touch every aspect of our lives; it is after all, only money. Don’t let it take away from the joy of your marriage, your amazing little boy, and the full life you have.
Hey, just an added thought…
there has got to be something, some sort of answer or help or relief from the student loan thing. Have you called any financial advisers or anyone who might be able to direct you to some resources you don’t know about?
Maybe Westwinds or another church in the area offers financial advice or counseling. I know many, many people who have ultimately changed lives after going through and/or meeting with financial counselors through their churches. Many churches even offer it for free. I know Jackson Free Methodist was doing it while we were going there. I believe Spring Arbor was too. It might be worth looking into… just a suggestion 🙂
I hear ya! Life does suck sometimes, keep your chin up, girl!
I feel you 100%. I am pretty much in the exact same boat. We have a wonderful family and day-to-day, we’re having fun and enjoying each other. But money really REALLY puts a damper on things as a whole, especially when you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel!
Don’t feel bad — our new house (after realizing the purchase price of this one, we DEFINITELY couldn’t afford yours) is only 750 sq ft!
many of us are in the same boat you are. i know that doesn’t help to solve your problems, but just know that you are not alone. oh, and when i get that money tree to grow in my backyard, you’ll be one of the first ones to get a seed for yourself! 🙂
Keep your chin up Nicole…I know how depressing the real world can be. If a teaching position doesn’t become available maybe you could reconsider the daycare idea again. I just went to orientation today and there were so many teacher there getting licensed to do “preschool programs” in their home. Their reasoning was to stay home with their child, make money, and save their own daycare costs and pursuing their love for teaching. I know that spacing is a problem, but with a little ingenuity, you can make it happen. Let me know if I can help you with ideas….just a thought….
Kris
so sweet.
Here is one to add for ya.. as we were getting out of the car this afternoon, I unbuckled Porter and he didnt realize it. He says, “Hey, who did this?!?!” and I told him that I did just now. He says, “Oh ok, so I can get down. That ROCKS!”LMAO!
Very cute 🙂
He is so sweet! I love it!:)