a confession

Hi there… I’m Nicole and I have a confession to make. A big, fat, vulnerable confession. I’ve been playing small for far too long. Stick with me. Let me explain. (Seriously this feels like one of those #feltcutemightdeletelater posts)

Ok. 13 years ago, I fell into this business with essential oils. Little did I know, they had a ton of other products to help keep toxins off of my babies skin and supplements to help our bodies work their best.

I embraced this business and shared it with real enthusiasm because I saw what the products were doing for our family and for others, and how it was blessing us in so many ways. Because of it, my husband was able to stay home with our kids for multiple years, and later start his own business. I can’t list everything it’s provided for us (thanks, regulations 🙃), but I’ll just say I’ve never regretted saying yes to something that started as a way to supplement my photography income during the winters LOL.

Somewhere over the past 5 years, I let other people’s opinions get in my head. Some of those voices were “friends” and some were men in my family (not my husband, he’s been super supportive). Slowly, it started to make me feel like I had to be smaller. Like my success somehow made me “different,” and I actually started feeling ashamed of it.

At one point, I even found myself wishing away my income just to feel more “normal” and like everyone else.

And then recently, someone I love dearly brought those old feelings right back up. It left me in tears, and feeling like the decisions I was making toward my own goals were somehow wrong, like wanting more out of life was greedy.

But then it hit me… I’ve been playing small. I’ve been shrinking myself and not fully going after the biggest, most expansive life I want, because I was afraid it might change how people see me. Even people I love.

Whew. This is a lot to share, and honestly I don’t know why the fuck I’m putting it out here for the world to see. Maybe I hope it resonates with someone else.

Don’t play small. Don’t let other people’s opinions of you hold you back from doing something you believe in.

After the recent 2 weeks on this amazing trip I have earned with Young Living (every year for the past 12 years I’ve qualified for it), I realized. Fuck it. Life is short. Why am I not sharing about these products and this business more? Why am I not enthusiastic anymore? Why am I holding back? Why am I playing small?

Can I also say… I’ve been really inspired by a few people in other companies (shout out to Shelby Scott and Libby Mepham, you have no idea you lit a fire under me but you did). Watching them show up so unapologetically made me realize… if they’re doing it, if people are still excited about what they’re building, why wouldn’t I be?

I made it to the top of my company. And if I can do it, other people can too… so why wouldn’t I share that?

Even if it’s just an extra $100 a month that helps someone breathe a little easier… I know how to help others. I know how to lead and teach. I know what our products do. I know how amazing our company is. why am I not talking about that?

So, this is me. Nicole. I love network marketing, advocating for dog rescue, horseback riding, a slow and simple life, unbusy schedules, eliminating toxins in our home (but you’ll have to pry Diet Coke from my cold dead hands). Oh and I love Jesus but I can curse like a sailor.

If you align with any of that, welcome. Follow along. I’ll be doing my best to be me, unapologetically.

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