Random Thoughts….

• $570 later and the Durango is home and Ramsey has her meds refilled.  Go figure that the dog would run out of her meds on the day that we have to get major repairs on the Durango.  Vehicles suck. And they’re expensive.   I actually was contemplating today the idea of trying to sell the Santa Fe.  Don’t tell Ryan this. He’s always trying to think of ways to get rid of car payments.  However, we have too much negative equity in it to come out even. Don’t get me wrong… I love the Fe, but I’d be fine driving something that wasn’t costing so much each month.  So, I figure we better stick to our original plan and keep the Fe until it’s paid off so we won’t owe anything on either vehicle.  However, with our luck the engine in the Durango will need replaced (it has 180,000 miles on it) and we’ll have to take out a loan to pay for that.  That’d be my luck…

• We did take the truck up to the bowling alley parking lot and put a For Sale sign in it. Yes, we still have the truck.  That’s what Ryan drove before we got the Durango.  Last June.  So we’ve had the truck sitting around for WAY too long.  Someone called on it tonight, and Ryan told them to make an offer (they asked if the price we had on it was as low as we’d go).  I’m hoping it’ll sell quickly, but probably not. 

• I’ve been a bit addicted to MySpace… Maria and I actually set up our own MySpace accounts and spent the other night on the phone with each other WHILE snooping in on people we knew from high school.  I doubt I’ll use my MySpace account, because I have this blog that suits me just fine.  I don’t really “get” why some people use MS… no one blogs on it… they just post stupid surveys and blinky sayings.   However, I guess it is pretty useful to find people you haven’t seen/heard from in awhile… it’s fun to see pictures of what people are up to nowadays.  Along with running across some MySpace sites of people I know, some of them were pretty smut filled.  What is up with people calling themselves “MILF’s”.  Ok, girls… it just makes you sound like a prostitute with an ego.  Get some dignity, get some class, and act like a mature role model.  My word.  Some people disgust me.

• I just don’t know what to think of my life right now.  I feel like I’m wandering aimlessly.  I thought I’d feel more “complete” at this point.  I graduated college, I’m married, we own a house, and we’re starting our family.  However, I feel more discombobulated than ever right now.  Why is that?  What is wrong with me?  What’s wrong with my life?  So I had this great idea that we should sell our house and move to a house with a big family room so I can do in-home daycare.  Yes, I think of these things just to stress out my husband.  His reply….”If you’d wanted to do that, we could have done it 5 years ago instead of going into debt $50,000 for your student loans” Well, yes, technically we could have honey… but my degree is always mine and I can fall back on that if I need to (however, I still have to keep up x amount of credits every few years to keep my teaching degree valid).  I just am stressed at the thought of teaching fulltime and having a family.  Student teaching was so stressful for me, with all the planning involved.  I don’t know how full time teachers do it, especially at the elementary level.  I am so worried about how to balance a full workday, plus having to plan lessons at night, deal with student/parent issues, and keep up with everyday errands, housework and have time for my family.  It’s insane.  But the summers off would be so wonderful.  I would LOVE to spend everyday taking Porter to the park or zoo or story time at the library.  Maybe I should just suck it up and stop being a baby and take whatever full time teaching position I might possibly be offered. 

Well, that’s about it for now. I just needed to sort out some thoughts… get some random things written down.  I feel chaotic.