Something that has been on my mind a bit lately is my “birth plan” for baby girl. I’ll be honest… I’m a “mom of convenience”. I have no problem with modern conveniences and using them (scheduled inductions, getting an epidural, bottle feeding, sleep training, etc etc), and typically think its nuts to not make use of something that can make your life easier.
Awhile back I made up my Bucket List (oddly I’ve been revisiting this list a lot lately to see what kind of goals I can complete. Is this because I have recently turned 30 and somehow feel like life is so short??) So on my list was to give birth naturally. This will 99.9% be my last delivery (unless some miracle should happen!), and I am kind of feeling like this is my last chance to
A couple years back I read Dooce’s birth story (Part 1, Part 2 and Part 3) and was totally inspired to try a natural childbirth. Actually, I think she was the reason I added it to my Bucket List, that’s how inspired I was!
My mom texted me a few months ago and had been reading my Bucket List and said “I noticed on your bucket lst….. give birth without drugs…. this is your chance!” And I was all “Hahahahahahah! No way. I enjoyed Hudson’s birth too much! Hahahahahaha!”
However…. I’m terrified of the pain. I’m terrified of having a sucky ass birth experience, especially when it is my last. Hudson’s birth- amazing. Went in at 7am, induced, epi at 11, delivered shortly after 1pm. And sure… I think, I only had the epi for 2 hours… I could do 2 hours of hell, right? I probably could. But what if… what if I end up with a 20 hour labor or something? EEEK! I guess I could always give in? I don’t know.
I personally have nothing against getting an epidural. Like I said, both of my deliveries were fine, though Hudson’s so much easier (P came out sunny side up and I pushed for 2.5 hours so…. I was pretty exhausted after delivering him). Hudson… I had him in 2 pushes and sat up and was all “I could do that again!” I don’t remember feeling terrible after delivery, or anything like that. I don’t regret the epidural at all. I think I’m mostly looking at trying natural childbirth just to… I dunno… see if I could do it? WTF. HAHA! Its just… I always hear people knocking inductions- saying labor is harder, worse etc… blah blah. But I was induced both times and would gladly beg for another induction this time. I didn’t feel like my labors were terrible at all. So, when people typically say its “easier” after a natural delivery I kind of silently think “uhh huh…” because I really don’t have memories of horror after two induced epidural deliveries.
I’d love to hear your thoughts… advice… websites… links…. stories… share away! Have any of you readers attempted a natural childbirth after an epi childbirth? Which did you prefer? Did you cave in and end up with an epidural?